Long Rant

Dear Whoever reads this,
This is a rant that I need to get out. IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO HEAR IT THEN DON”T READ IT!
Tonight I was at Eucharistic adoration, which basically is having Jesus exposed in the monstrance. And the guy that leads this Adoration time that we call Cor ad Cor which means Heart to Heart in Latin, sang this song called Better is one Day. While he was playing/singing this song I just burst into tears. I miss my grandma and I was yelling at God for taking her away from me. There has been so many people in this last year taken from me that I am sad. I mean my grandparents where last year, but this year, I have lost my Great Uncle Bob, Great Aunt Vi, My friend Kenneth. My friend Amanda, and then this weekend, I was not close to her and did not even know her, but I knew her friends a student from MnSU was found dead on Friday night. I just can’t take it anymore. Well I was sitting there and I just broke out in tears because it got me thinking about how much I miss my grandma and how much I take things for granted. Because this is also Nation Homeless Awareness Week, so they also showed pictures of homeless people from all over.
I feel so fortunate to have a house and parents that are still alive. I am also fortunate to have roommates and other people that love me even when I don’t think that they do. But there are some times like right now that I feel left out. 2 of my roommates are not here, which I understand, I think they are at someone’s house talking about Mary Kay, but my other 2 are back in a bedroom with the door shut talking and I never get included in any of these conversations. I just feel like I am a horrible person or something. I don’t know why I feel like this, but I do. I guess I am kind of jealous of the friendship that they have gotten over this year. I knew both of them before this year, but oh well.
And then one of my roommates told me that she would make sure that my rent check got turned in, and I come back on the 5th of November, and she did not turn it it, I turned it in on the 6th, but they still have not cashed it.
Well I better get going. Just needed to get some thoughts out.

Rebecca