Sleeping in the Forest

Sleeping in the Forest by Mary Oliver

I thought the earth remembered me,she took me back so tenderly,arranging her dark skirts, her pocketsfull of lichens and seeds.I slept as never before, a stone on the river bed,nothing between me and the white fire of the starsbut my thoughts, and they floated light as mothsamong the branches of the perfect trees.All night I heard the small kingdomsbreathing around me, the insects,and the birds who do their work in the darkness.All night I rose and fell, as if in water,grappling with a luminous doom. By morningI had vanished at least a dozen timesinto something better.

Little

Today I feel so litte. My roommates have not really said one word to me all night. And then to top it off, I was looking at facebook, and my one roommate has top friends, and the one roommate that is on there is on it, and also the 2 girls that we lived wit hlast year is on it. I guess I am not her firend, and you know what I feel like they would not even notice if I had died. I mean I feel like I mean nothing to any of them, they don't talk to me unless they need something. And they do everything together without me. I feel like I should be dead in my apartment, and when I have told them that, they are just like what can we do to change that, and I tell them, but nothing changes. I don't know what to do anymore.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year Everyone!

I hope you all had a fantastic Christmas and a great new Years. Life for me has been stressful, but what else is new with being in College. Anyone want to pay my bills for me? I have to pay rent and Tuition all by the 6th. Scary... But other then that, life is good, just stressful. Because I am unsure of who reads this, I am not going to say alot. I hope to update more in 2008 then I did in 2007.

Work

So it has been a while, but right now I need to get something out.

I HATE WORK!!!! Everyone there is so childish. I have told my boss every week that I need at least 35 hours, but I never get it! Also today a girl that quit a couple weeks ago told me something and I am not sure if I believe her or not. I got my hair cut and she told me that there were 3 people at work that did not like it and were talking about it behind my back. Do I confront any of them on it or not? One was a guy, the other 2 were girls. When she asked them about it they said it was an inside joke. Everyone at my work is so childish and I want the high school drama to stop! I came home from work and all I want to do is cry!

...

So, basically unintentionally or maybe it was intentionally my roommates called me fat... and I have been trying to hide that I am upset by it by blaming it on I have a cold, which I do, but I keep blaming all the sniffling on that.. where it is not just that...

yeah so...

So school has started again.. It is keeping me busy. Geography is going to kick my butt, but hopefully I will get through it and get on the Deans List again. Umm.. lets see what else.. Oh yeah I went down to New Orleans over New Years, and I had fun, except for the girls I was sharing a room with were loud when they came back in from partying. We will see how that goes in the future.. umm what else...Right now I am watching When Harry meet Sally.. It is an interesting movie.. not sure what else is new...it's kinda late and my brain hurts.

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.
- David Viscott

The entire law is summed up in a single command, "Love your neighbor as yourself."
- Galatians 5:14 (NIV)

Life is what happens to you while you are making other plans.
- anonymous

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint you can on it.
- Danny Kaye

Purpose

So yesterday I went up to the Cities to spend time with my Sus and Mary.. I miss both of them dearly. Today I worked on my day off of work which sucked but good money. Tonight haveter work, I talked with my roommate Michele, we had a good conversation. I miss good conversations. We cut it short so she could go to bed. Which I need to do also.

On another note, I am glad that this semester is over. I got my grades today and I got 2 A's, 2 B's and a C. That helped my GPA, which will hopefully get me into Professional Ed. Well I think I am going to head to bed. It is only 12:45, but I have had 2 good conversations tonight and that tires me out.

Good night World!



Here are some quotes.

It is not our purpose to become each other; it is to recognize each other, to learn to see the other and honor him for what he is.
-Hermann Hesse

Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience [dreams]: this is the ideal life.
–Mark Twain

Wise men speak because they have something to say, fools because they have to say something.
–Plato